random thoughts while driving…

While driving down lincoln.. a random thought came to me.. (as usual..)

Saw a leaf fall and thought.. ‘leaves are so useless..’
they’re so weak.. so thin.. fall so easily.. people step on it… make the roads messy…
they’re funny looking.. they just seem so useless…
and then a tree came into my view.. and each individual leaf came alive on the tree..

OMG~! And all these thoughts flooded in…
Each leaf seems so useless, but actually is the energy producer of the tree!
Leaves take in sunlight and convert it to energy to grow the tree..
So without leaves, the tree can’t get grow.. and can’t bear fruit..
And then when a leaf dies it becomes nutrients for the roots to take up…
God is so funny…!!
Why, instead of making one huge thing to produce energy for the tree, would He make so many small leaves to grow a huge tree..

And then God showed me..
That’s like Christians and the Church (Kingdom of God)!
We’re the leaves and the tree is the Church!
Just like there are many leaves on a tree, there are many of us in the Church. 
Each leaf seems so insignificant, but each leaf is so essential…
And each are faithfully taking in the sunlight to grow the tree… Just like us! 
As each of us faithfully take in God, the Church grows!
So we must be faithful… And the Church will grow and bear fruit.
However many leaves are left on the tree…. I must be faithful.. God will keep me faithful…

all while driving down lincoln ave… hehe =)

fluorescent Christian…

In one of my classes, we were learning about fluorescence.
The professor said, “Many objects absorb light but not many can emit it. Fluorescence is one of the few that can both absorb and emit light.”

It made me think… OH my~ It’s like my life…!!
I can absorb God’s light, through reading the Word or praying.. but can’t seem to emit God’s light to the world. I want to be a fluorescent Christian that will both absorb and emit His light.

In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven. Matt 5:16
Do all things without grumbling or questioning, that you may be blameless and innocent, children of God without blemish in the midst of a crooked and twisted generation, among whom you shine as lights in the world. Phil 2:14-15

Key called Promise…

내 모든 소망이 끊어졌다 해도 내 모든 기회가 없어졌다 해도
좌절과 절망이 나의 앞에서 나를 기다린다 해도
내 모든 희망이 사라졌다 해도 내 모든 계획이 무너졌다 해도
슬픔과 고통이 나의 앞에서 나를 기다린다 해도
주님은 절대 포기하지 않으시죠 내가 모든걸 포기 할때 나를 일으키죠
주님은 나를 너무도 나를 영원히 나를 사랑하죠…. 

This song has been on my mind for a while…  
무엇이 두려운지… 많은 할일들을 핑계삼아 자꾸 도망가고… 나의 전부를 내어놓기가 너무 어려워 조심스레 다가갔다가 도망가고… 또 상처받을까봐… 또 어디로 갈까봐… 잡고있던 것들은 다 끊어 졌고… 언제 끊어질지 모르는 무언가를 붙잡고 있는데… 이 손을 놓으면 나를 받으실건가요…? 안개가 눈을 가려서 안보이는데… 소리쳐 불러도 들려오는건 내 목소리 뿐… 그러다가 마음 속에서 들려오는 예전의 약속들… 그 약속들을 무조건 믿어야 하는건지… 안보일때는 어떻게 믿어야 하는건지… 너무 많이 도망왔나…?  I miss you… You are so unpredictable yet so predictable…

이런 나의 마음에 또다시 변치 않는 약속을 하신다…

The grass withers and the flowers fall, but the Word of our God stands forever. Is 40:8
What I have said, that will I bring about, what I have planned, that will I do. Is 46:11

Yet the LORD longs to be gracious to you; He rises to show you compassion. For the LORD is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for Him. Is 30:18

See, I lay a stone in Zion, a tested stone, a precious cornerstone for a sure foundation; the one who trusts will never be dismayed. Is 28:16
Then you will know that I am the LORD; those who hope in Me will not be disappointed. Is 49:23
Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will be joyful in God my Savior. Hab 3:17
Surely this is our God; we trusted in Him, and He saved us. This is the Lord, we trusted in Him; let us rejoice and be glad in His salvation. Is 25:9

you say you are good.. they say you are good…
you say you are hope… they say you are hope…
you say it’ll be worth it… they say it’ll be worth it…
if I can’t see you help me to hear you…
if I can’t even hear you, help me to hold on to Your promises in my heart…
because You promised…

What a fool, quoth he, am I, thus to lie in a stinking dungeon, when I may as well walk in liberty! I have a key in my bosom called Promise, that will, I am pursuaded, open any lock in Doubting Castle. -Pilgrim’s Progress 

As a Pleasing Aroma…

Beyond this bended knee, Beyond the words I speak
Beyond the songs I sing, Hear my worship
All that my heart can bring, This is my offering
Jesus my Holy King, Hear my worship…

This song has been on my mind…
Cus I have been studying Exodus and Leviticus, I’ve been thinking about sacrifices/offerings more these days.
I was praying during the revival meeting this past Sunday, and saw an image.
I saw a bull being brought to the altar to be offered as a sacrifice.
This bull was being stubborn. A few people had to pull on it. 
I felt like I was the bull…
“Oh my goodness, What if i’m a bitter aroma…??”
(But I really want to be a pleasing aroma to God…) 
I gave my thoughts to God and left the revival w/o His answer.
That night I opened my Bible to do my QT in Ezekiel. And read…

“…There I will accept them, and there I will require your contributions and the choicest of your gifts, with all your sacred offerings. As a pleasing aroma I will accept you(!!), when I bring you out from the peoples and gather you out of the countries where you have been scattered…. And you shall know that I am the LORD, when I deal with you for My Name’s sake, not according to your evil ways, nor according to your corrupt deeds, O house of Israel, declares the Lord GOD.” (Ez 20:40-44)

OH my goodnesS!! God made me speechless again…
Of course I am a stench to God. But through Jesus, He has declared to accept me as a pleasing aroma!!
He says He will and it is truth no matter what lies I hear…
I am a pleasing offering to Him!

So my Father…
Beyond this bended knee, Beyond the words I speak…
All that my heart can bring, This is my offering… Hear my Worship…

How Ironic…

What man of you, having a hundred sheep, if he has lost one of them, does he not leave the ninety-nine in the open country, and go after the one that is lost until he finds it? And when he has found it, he lays it on his shoulders, rejoicing. And when he comes home, he calls together his friends and his neighbors, saying to them, ‘Rejoice with me, for I have found my sheep that was lost.’ Just so, I tell you, there will be more joy in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who need no repentance.”   Luke 15:4-7

I remember being one of the ninety-nine sheep in a church skit in 3rd grade.
I used to always think I was one of the ninety-nine sheep. I thought I was OK.

This morning I was imagining myself as one of the ninety-nine sheep.

I was wondering where that one sheep went.
I wandered around looking for the lost sheep that Jesus was looking for. 
Then I heard Jesus’ call.  He called MY name… (o.O Huh? why calling me?)
Then my eyes opened. I saw where I was. 
I was the one lost sheep that wandered off…
I was too busy making excuses about taking care of other sheep that I forgot that I wandered off! (How ironic…)
So Jesus was looking for me. I just couldn’t hear His voice… Then He found me!

“I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent.”

I used to think I was one of the ninety-nine sheep. Until Jesus found me… Amazing Grace…