Key called Promise…

내 모든 소망이 끊어졌다 해도 내 모든 기회가 없어졌다 해도
좌절과 절망이 나의 앞에서 나를 기다린다 해도
내 모든 희망이 사라졌다 해도 내 모든 계획이 무너졌다 해도
슬픔과 고통이 나의 앞에서 나를 기다린다 해도
주님은 절대 포기하지 않으시죠 내가 모든걸 포기 할때 나를 일으키죠
주님은 나를 너무도 나를 영원히 나를 사랑하죠…. 

This song has been on my mind for a while…  
무엇이 두려운지… 많은 할일들을 핑계삼아 자꾸 도망가고… 나의 전부를 내어놓기가 너무 어려워 조심스레 다가갔다가 도망가고… 또 상처받을까봐… 또 어디로 갈까봐… 잡고있던 것들은 다 끊어 졌고… 언제 끊어질지 모르는 무언가를 붙잡고 있는데… 이 손을 놓으면 나를 받으실건가요…? 안개가 눈을 가려서 안보이는데… 소리쳐 불러도 들려오는건 내 목소리 뿐… 그러다가 마음 속에서 들려오는 예전의 약속들… 그 약속들을 무조건 믿어야 하는건지… 안보일때는 어떻게 믿어야 하는건지… 너무 많이 도망왔나…?  I miss you… You are so unpredictable yet so predictable…

이런 나의 마음에 또다시 변치 않는 약속을 하신다…

The grass withers and the flowers fall, but the Word of our God stands forever. Is 40:8
What I have said, that will I bring about, what I have planned, that will I do. Is 46:11

Yet the LORD longs to be gracious to you; He rises to show you compassion. For the LORD is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for Him. Is 30:18

See, I lay a stone in Zion, a tested stone, a precious cornerstone for a sure foundation; the one who trusts will never be dismayed. Is 28:16
Then you will know that I am the LORD; those who hope in Me will not be disappointed. Is 49:23
Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will be joyful in God my Savior. Hab 3:17
Surely this is our God; we trusted in Him, and He saved us. This is the Lord, we trusted in Him; let us rejoice and be glad in His salvation. Is 25:9

you say you are good.. they say you are good…
you say you are hope… they say you are hope…
you say it’ll be worth it… they say it’ll be worth it…
if I can’t see you help me to hear you…
if I can’t even hear you, help me to hold on to Your promises in my heart…
because You promised…

What a fool, quoth he, am I, thus to lie in a stinking dungeon, when I may as well walk in liberty! I have a key in my bosom called Promise, that will, I am pursuaded, open any lock in Doubting Castle. -Pilgrim’s Progress 

As a Pleasing Aroma…

Beyond this bended knee, Beyond the words I speak
Beyond the songs I sing, Hear my worship
All that my heart can bring, This is my offering
Jesus my Holy King, Hear my worship…

This song has been on my mind…
Cus I have been studying Exodus and Leviticus, I’ve been thinking about sacrifices/offerings more these days.
I was praying during the revival meeting this past Sunday, and saw an image.
I saw a bull being brought to the altar to be offered as a sacrifice.
This bull was being stubborn. A few people had to pull on it. 
I felt like I was the bull…
“Oh my goodness, What if i’m a bitter aroma…??”
(But I really want to be a pleasing aroma to God…) 
I gave my thoughts to God and left the revival w/o His answer.
That night I opened my Bible to do my QT in Ezekiel. And read…

“…There I will accept them, and there I will require your contributions and the choicest of your gifts, with all your sacred offerings. As a pleasing aroma I will accept you(!!), when I bring you out from the peoples and gather you out of the countries where you have been scattered…. And you shall know that I am the LORD, when I deal with you for My Name’s sake, not according to your evil ways, nor according to your corrupt deeds, O house of Israel, declares the Lord GOD.” (Ez 20:40-44)

OH my goodnesS!! God made me speechless again…
Of course I am a stench to God. But through Jesus, He has declared to accept me as a pleasing aroma!!
He says He will and it is truth no matter what lies I hear…
I am a pleasing offering to Him!

So my Father…
Beyond this bended knee, Beyond the words I speak…
All that my heart can bring, This is my offering… Hear my Worship…